fruitastic

i've been up for a few hours after taking one of those kinds of naps where you sleep for a long time but your brain is in a state of unrest the entire time. i blame it on the heat.

there was this bad, depressing karma going around tonight. part of it was my fault actually. i sent doug this yahoo! news article which talked about how guys only take breakups badly if they're the dumpee. word. that lead to talking about examples of such. as of today, i'm two for two in the dumpee department. i guess that explains a lot.

this led to people we knew in middle school (specifically people he had dated in middle school) and some of the depressing stories we've heard about people from back then. i don't want to use names here, it doesn't seem right. death is one of those things that i've never been comfortable talking about because i've never had anyony really close to me die. and ya know what? i've never been to a funeral or a wedding. people look at me funny when i tell them that. i've still got a few years to explore the fundamentals of life. anyway, it just felt really somber tonight. the relative quiet in the house. the warmth of the night. me feeling really lethargic. bill's latest update about a girl who he hasn't spoken to in a year. people graduating tomorrow, which is a happy and sad event simultaneously. friends of mine taking finals. definitely some dark energy in the universe right now. i hope it goes away soon.